Can't stay away from you

I can't,
i can't stay away from you...

I try,
I try so hard...
but i can not seem to do anything
with my heart....

It just doesn stop...
doesn stop yearning for you
every moment it feels
it feels more blue

I promised..
I promised myself
that i would never look
never look back..

I looked...
I looked back...
there was something...
something that lacked...

Its over...
thats what you said...
but my heart is wishing...
still waiting for a hint....

Hurt me...
u did not want to hurt me...
U wanted to let go..

it pains...
it pained when we were together..
pains even more when
we are not...

I hope...
I hope our paths cross someday...
I am waiting.... I would always do...

THOUGHT A LOT....

At last i thought.... i thought a lot...
questioned myself
of whats true
and whats not...

felt i was reaching sumwhere..
where i reached,
was the middle
of nowhere...

I am stuck....
something is sucking me inside....
I scream...
the voice does not come outside......

I see smiling faces everywhere
they are so happy...
Everyone is with someone....
here i am cold and snappy...

I am hanging in a vaccum...
cant breath...
this feeling of helplessness
is making me seethe...

through this vaccum
i let the bubble burst...
the truth is dawning on to me...
I no longer feel cursed..

The truth was with me
all the time...
right beside me....
Now i feel fine...

I have got my answers...
they are making me smile....
BUt being truly happy
would still take a while..............

Reflections of a confused heart!!!

A Lot of things are going on in my mind....
my heart is singings its own tune....
the mind says stay away...
the heart cant give up so soon...

the mind is afraid of being hurt...
the heart is not....
the mind doesnt trust him...
the heart wants to give it a shot...

the mind tries to apply logic....
the heart is far away from it....
the mind is wary...
the heart goes by its own instinct...

the mind gives up....
it let goes of the heart...
what it doesnt know....
the heart was not with it....
right from the start...

the heart is all alone now..
waiting for his love...
what it doesnt know...
is that..waiting is tough...

expectations hurt...
they hurt a lot...
does it mean...
never to expect....and stick to the dot...

the heart starts thinking....
yes it does...
it starts feeling....
experiences the pain of loss...

but what did it lose??
did he belong to the heart all along...
or was it an illusion...
does love exist or is it a bunch of rules.???

The heart is confused.....
it wants the answers....
of what ...
its not sure...............